Another day...

Well, that wagon is a mighty tall one. It has not been easy to get back on, but slow and steady wins the race. That phrase got me through many years of college, any adversity, and it's going to get me in shape too!

I have however jumped both feet into 5Ks! Two in 2 weeks. The first was ROUGH! But it's over with and now I can say I did it! It helps I have such great people around me for support. My husband, my friends... they keep me going and helped get me to the finish line... both times! There was no doubt I would finish, but it was so sweet to have my friends finish, then come back and get me! I'm so very blessed.

Now, I have a 5K lined up every month for the rest of the year!  More to come folks, it's only going to get better.

Where is that wagon?

Yep, I've been off the wagon. Between my monthly visitor, studying for the GMAT, the baby getting up more now than when she was a newborn... forget it! Yes, all crap excuses. Plenty of people have those obstacles and do just fine sticking with it. I know, I know. And some of my support system are kicking ass recently, and here I've been easting Reese's pieces and soda, ugh. Weight wise, it hasn't hurt me too much yet, but I do feel like crap! I'm longing for the treadmill, the trail, the elliptical! P90X... here I come! Yeah, I'm going to give that a whirl again. Since we think we may have fixed the baby sleeping thing  it will be easier to stick with it. (F'n cats waking her up all night... i.e. waking ME up all night!) I can do a lot of stuff on little sleep, but P90X is not one of them. Oh and my first 5K is in a few weeks, so I definitely need to get my dupa in gear!

I see the next wagon on yonder and will be hopping on Friday morning. Why not tomorrow or tonight for that matter? Well, I have the GMAT tomorrow and I need to be sure my body is putting energy into making my brain work, not repairing itself from workout one of week one... oh push ups/pull ups.... words cannot even express my anticipation for you. But I guess the most honest reason is- I don't want to bad enough.

1.6!

For those trying to lose weight, weigh in day can make you have a huge smile all day or be pissed ALL DAY. So far I've managed to not get upset on 'bad' weigh in days, but I since I've really buckled down, I haven't had many bad days.  This week was actually a pleasant surprise when I saw I was down 1.6 pounds!! I thought the scale may be wrong, so I got off and stepped back on. Nope, still down 1.6. Hey I'll take it.

The body always fascinates me. Take for example, years of complaining to various doctors about being heavy and how hard it is to lose the weight and years of doctors doing blood work and finding nothing. All thyroid levels, insulin levels, blah blah blah are fine. That's why it was comforting to be told to consider PCOS. Now I didn't have all of the clinical symptoms of PCOS, but I did/do have a few. What finally convinced me I had it was considering family medical history of the women in my family.  It makes it easier to accept that you have to work harder because there is a real medical reason. So imagine my surprise when I go see the doctor about nothing related to my weight and she does blood work and BAM, my thyroid levels are elevated?? What?? I have an under active Thyroid? Seriously? And you want me to take medicine??  I don't go into taking any medicine for a long period of time without seriously researching it and making sure for myself that it is necessary. So that's where I stand, researching. But it's a very interesting development.

A Healthier You

4 weeks down now. And another pound gone this week. Not too shabby. That's all I'm looking for, a pound a week. But I'm wishing I'd get closer to breaking 240 (only 7 pounds to go), so I can fulfill my promise of getting a massage with every 10 pounds lost!  I've spent so many years on the 'gosh, I can totally lose 30 pounds in 3 months right?' game and I'm done with it! I may lose the weight, but then I slack and it comes right back on. It takes some time, but it does. It helps I have created an awesome circle of people to help keep me encouraged. While Hades has decided to extend itself onto my area this week, so my walks may not be so much out doors this week, I'm am going to be keeping at it! We cleared out the living room to make way for the little one to play, which means I get room to work out more!! YAY ME!!!

I created a team, with some of those people that help keep me encouraged, for a program called 'Healthier You'. We get points for doing a whole bunch of stuff we were already doing, so I decided to try and get us rewarded for it. And the reward isn't just a healthier me, I asked to be sure. And I figure it will help keep me from getting too off track. I want to win!

Small changes, every day.

Almost three weeks and Give up soda??

I've thought everyday for almost three weeks what to write in this blog. Why did I start it to begin with?

So far so good honestly. I've been tracking what I eat diligently. If I believe my scale it's almost 3 pounds in 2 weeks. We'll see Tuesday if that trend has continued. Some days are better than others, but that's the way everyday is regardless of food right? My one major accomplishment right now is cutting back on my soda intake. I'm pretty much down to a single can every other day. For those that know me, I hate coffee, I don't like hot tea. I try and drink cold brewed tea but after awhile it just doesn't cut it. It's not soda, it's not bubbly and syrupy and sweet.  And soda is my source of caffeine. It hasn't been that hard actually. As a friend told me you have to ask yourself what you want more when it comes to getting healthy. So when I want a soda, an ice cream, a whatever unhealthy thing- I ask myself, what do I want more? That item or to get healthy and show my daughter a fun healthy lifestyle? It's a pretty effective thought process. The only thing that pisses me off is when I drank more soda, I still never went out of my calorie requirements for the day. Now I don't drink as much soda, but I'm still just in on my calorie requirements. Damn physiology.

I started walking with my little one. Shoot for 2-3 miles a few times a week. I don't even notice the hour it takes to walk the three miles. That's a good thing right? I just hope with every mile I get closer to maybe actually running one day.  In the here and now society, it kills me I'm having to... well... walk before I run. I've had many a seasoned runner I've chatted with here and there over the past 10 years tell me to start with walking. There's nothing wrong with walking, it clearly gets me where I need to go. But, I look around me at the other people on the trail running and I want that NOW. I just have to accept that it may take a while, I may never be very fast, but it will be, I know it.

Everyone has to start somewhere.

Can't be fat forever

I've spent my whole adult life fat. I'm tired of it. I've lost weight here and there. It's crept back on... here and there.  I never understood why it was so hard to lose weight. The math says if you eat less than you need, you lose weight. If you exercise and help create a deficit, then you lose weight. Well, that's not always the case, sometimes your body fights back. The only time I really put a solid effort into it I counted every calorie, never went over 1800 in a day and worked out out for almost 2 hours a day, several days a week. I was able to lose about 20 pounds in a little over 2 months. It was about 6(?) years ago. It was tough, but I didn't mind. Now, several years later, the weight is back on. Partially due to poor habits, partially due to having a baby.  Maybe mostly due to poor habits.

Since the beginning of the year I've been invigorated to lose weight and get healthy. I have a new beautiful little life to teach healthy habits to. I can't exactly teach them to her if I'm not making them my lifestyle now can I?  So, that's why I do this now. It's for me yes. Because getting to a healthy weight and increasing my activity level will only improve almost everything in life. But it's mostly for her. She deserves it, my husband deserves it. I feel so much better and have so much more energy when I keep at it. So why is it so damn hard to keep at it?!?!?

The only kink in the plan is this PCOS I have to deal with. It's not as bad as most women have it. I don't have diabetes, my cholesterol levels are really great, my blood pressure is amazingly low for all that is going on (wife, mother, full time employee, etc, etc). But I do have a heck of time losing weight and it took a very long time to be blessed with my daughter.  If I take 'time off' from watching every single thing I eat and exercise, then I'm usually back at square one in not that long of time.

So, why write this? Because I know there are others out there with issues. I know there are people that can motivate me with their strength (and there are several that do) and maybe I can motivate one or two with mine.

Let's at least give it a try.