Can't be fat forever

I've spent my whole adult life fat. I'm tired of it. I've lost weight here and there. It's crept back on... here and there.  I never understood why it was so hard to lose weight. The math says if you eat less than you need, you lose weight. If you exercise and help create a deficit, then you lose weight. Well, that's not always the case, sometimes your body fights back. The only time I really put a solid effort into it I counted every calorie, never went over 1800 in a day and worked out out for almost 2 hours a day, several days a week. I was able to lose about 20 pounds in a little over 2 months. It was about 6(?) years ago. It was tough, but I didn't mind. Now, several years later, the weight is back on. Partially due to poor habits, partially due to having a baby.  Maybe mostly due to poor habits.

Since the beginning of the year I've been invigorated to lose weight and get healthy. I have a new beautiful little life to teach healthy habits to. I can't exactly teach them to her if I'm not making them my lifestyle now can I?  So, that's why I do this now. It's for me yes. Because getting to a healthy weight and increasing my activity level will only improve almost everything in life. But it's mostly for her. She deserves it, my husband deserves it. I feel so much better and have so much more energy when I keep at it. So why is it so damn hard to keep at it?!?!?

The only kink in the plan is this PCOS I have to deal with. It's not as bad as most women have it. I don't have diabetes, my cholesterol levels are really great, my blood pressure is amazingly low for all that is going on (wife, mother, full time employee, etc, etc). But I do have a heck of time losing weight and it took a very long time to be blessed with my daughter.  If I take 'time off' from watching every single thing I eat and exercise, then I'm usually back at square one in not that long of time.

So, why write this? Because I know there are others out there with issues. I know there are people that can motivate me with their strength (and there are several that do) and maybe I can motivate one or two with mine.

Let's at least give it a try.