Almost three weeks and Give up soda??

I've thought everyday for almost three weeks what to write in this blog. Why did I start it to begin with?

So far so good honestly. I've been tracking what I eat diligently. If I believe my scale it's almost 3 pounds in 2 weeks. We'll see Tuesday if that trend has continued. Some days are better than others, but that's the way everyday is regardless of food right? My one major accomplishment right now is cutting back on my soda intake. I'm pretty much down to a single can every other day. For those that know me, I hate coffee, I don't like hot tea. I try and drink cold brewed tea but after awhile it just doesn't cut it. It's not soda, it's not bubbly and syrupy and sweet.  And soda is my source of caffeine. It hasn't been that hard actually. As a friend told me you have to ask yourself what you want more when it comes to getting healthy. So when I want a soda, an ice cream, a whatever unhealthy thing- I ask myself, what do I want more? That item or to get healthy and show my daughter a fun healthy lifestyle? It's a pretty effective thought process. The only thing that pisses me off is when I drank more soda, I still never went out of my calorie requirements for the day. Now I don't drink as much soda, but I'm still just in on my calorie requirements. Damn physiology.

I started walking with my little one. Shoot for 2-3 miles a few times a week. I don't even notice the hour it takes to walk the three miles. That's a good thing right? I just hope with every mile I get closer to maybe actually running one day.  In the here and now society, it kills me I'm having to... well... walk before I run. I've had many a seasoned runner I've chatted with here and there over the past 10 years tell me to start with walking. There's nothing wrong with walking, it clearly gets me where I need to go. But, I look around me at the other people on the trail running and I want that NOW. I just have to accept that it may take a while, I may never be very fast, but it will be, I know it.

Everyone has to start somewhere.

Can't be fat forever

I've spent my whole adult life fat. I'm tired of it. I've lost weight here and there. It's crept back on... here and there.  I never understood why it was so hard to lose weight. The math says if you eat less than you need, you lose weight. If you exercise and help create a deficit, then you lose weight. Well, that's not always the case, sometimes your body fights back. The only time I really put a solid effort into it I counted every calorie, never went over 1800 in a day and worked out out for almost 2 hours a day, several days a week. I was able to lose about 20 pounds in a little over 2 months. It was about 6(?) years ago. It was tough, but I didn't mind. Now, several years later, the weight is back on. Partially due to poor habits, partially due to having a baby.  Maybe mostly due to poor habits.

Since the beginning of the year I've been invigorated to lose weight and get healthy. I have a new beautiful little life to teach healthy habits to. I can't exactly teach them to her if I'm not making them my lifestyle now can I?  So, that's why I do this now. It's for me yes. Because getting to a healthy weight and increasing my activity level will only improve almost everything in life. But it's mostly for her. She deserves it, my husband deserves it. I feel so much better and have so much more energy when I keep at it. So why is it so damn hard to keep at it?!?!?

The only kink in the plan is this PCOS I have to deal with. It's not as bad as most women have it. I don't have diabetes, my cholesterol levels are really great, my blood pressure is amazingly low for all that is going on (wife, mother, full time employee, etc, etc). But I do have a heck of time losing weight and it took a very long time to be blessed with my daughter.  If I take 'time off' from watching every single thing I eat and exercise, then I'm usually back at square one in not that long of time.

So, why write this? Because I know there are others out there with issues. I know there are people that can motivate me with their strength (and there are several that do) and maybe I can motivate one or two with mine.

Let's at least give it a try.